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Early Days

Here's another early post. For the record, I was contemplating the world ahead whether to publish all the old post i wrote. Well as my soul heals the shame, I believe I've moved on. To my amazement, all these old post actually makes me - grow-up faster and eventually become a better person . . .

A twin Ikea top shelves sits in a corner on my table. My room is still filled with
'Relationship days' remnants that have seen better days. As I unpacks my CD case, loneliness finally overwhelms me. I sits heavily on the edge of the bed, tears threatening...


Everyone wants to be loved and needed, particularly by the person who just broke up with us. I understand. What could be better than hearing from a girl who just told you she didn't want you in her life anymore, her sad, wistful " It's the same announcing it on my Facebook" voice on the other end of the phone? It's validating. It's exciting. It's irresistible. Fine! But what are we suppose to do instead?


Breakups, I've heard, are supposed to be just that. Breaks. Hard, clean breaks. No talking, no seeing, no emailing . . . keep everything to yourself. The relationship is over. Half the people I know move on pretty slow, some takes years after a huge breakup, and frankly that makes perfect sense to me. Again, for the most part, I'm not done yet, but I've made an admirable beginning.

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  1. cLoUDzApril 24, 2009 at 1:59 AM

    nice to see you notice.life is more than just this, bro. hang on and you know where you'll be when you fall....with us.

    "if you wanna see rainbows, you gotta first face the rain..."

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  2. Conner InspectorMay 14, 2009 at 1:13 AM

    yo bro! when can come out yum cha?

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