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Depression speaking? 

Sometimes I think I'm in danger of never recovering.

“You know when you come across one of those empty-shell people,
and you think, ‘What the hell happened to you?’ Well, there came
a time in each one of those lives where they were standing at a
crossroads...”


And do you know the most surprising thing about breaking up?
It doesn't actually kills you like a bullet to the heart or
a head-on car wreck.

Well, it should, after 5 years in a relationship,when someone
you've promised to cherish till death do you part says,

"God gave me the assurance to break up and
I do feel God's peace with me when i made that decision "

and the next thing you know she is going out with another guy
just right after the break up - WOW!
That should kill you instantly.


You shouldn't have to wake up day after that,
trying to understand how in the world you didn't know.
The light just never went on, you know.
I must have have known, of course,
but I was too scared to see the truth.
Then fear just makes you so stupid.
Oh, love is blind. Yeah, we have that saying, too.
Everybody has that saying because it's true everywhere.
I don't want to be blind anymore. I wake up in the night
thinking - "You idiot. I mean, you're the stupidest man in the world".

You can be mad as a mad dog at the way things went. You can
swear, curse the fates, regret everything you ever did but when it
comes to the end. You have to let go.

I guess, in certain houses, 'Fairy Tales' do come true =)

Comments

  1. andrewtaiFebruary 28, 2009 at 5:08 PM

    mr tim!!!! when i see your post i know something bad is happening =/

    pls tell me what is happening in msn ok? haha

    may gos bless you and your love life !

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  2. Timmy LaiMarch 2, 2009 at 7:22 PM

    No worries mate.Will update you on MSN if I see you.Take care and Keep Rocking =D

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  3. jefMarch 5, 2009 at 2:20 AM

    I'm puzzled and speechless. The fact that you are writing these, I respect your courage and strength. I had a "short" experience not too long ago and tasted a small portion of your feelings, it's terrible. Yam cha, call me anytime.

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